do you ever get that feeling that maybe you just did something completely wrong? like when you were doing it, it was all right and the moment you finished you realized it was all the exact opposite of what you were supposed to do?
yeah theres been a few days like that in my life.
cold medicine makes you feel strange things. like you are disconnected from everything around you and while you see it all, its all not real. the only way you fall back in is by reaching out and touching it. the last few days reminded me of earlier in my life. i lived so long without touching. i just sat and watched the fuckers as they picked my life for me. done with that now. i reach through the glass and while it hurts like hell for the shards to cut my skin, its the only way to touch and feel the other side. to show you that it is real. its all real and its all around you.
life has a strange workout clause hidden somewhere in it. it states that everything will eventually work out. just give it a little time, itll get to you. i guess thats what people cant stand though. that little bit of time that separates them from the rest of their lives. everybody wants it all now. really most of the time im like that too, but right now im just fine with it being a little off. im fine waiting behind a little ways because i know that itll all work out. its written in the fine print. and if there is anything to take from all of this, it is that you may not always receive from the sources you are expecting, but you will receive eventually, just as you will give. its life and its inevitable. take it while you can. give it while you have to. keep moving.
tim.
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