someone cares.

as we speak cruel time is fleeing, believe as little as possible in the morrow.

granted we can not live every day as if we would die tomorrow, but its nice to feel that way every once in a while.

i was skimming the paper the other day and as i often do, read the obituaries to make sure no one i know has passed. someone once told me that once you reach 15 you die off one by one. i thought it cynical at the time, but i now know it is true. since i was about 13 or so, there has been someone i know die just about every year. the most recent though was one that hit me a little bit harder than most.

when i was a junior in high school i took a ceramics class. i sat alone at the table because everyone else in the class was a freshmen. on the second day, a little girl with severe down syndrome decided to sit next to me and her guide for that class then followed. the little girl was barely interpreted in speech and was truly a challenge to communicate with. this compounded by the girl's lack of judgement made the whole ordeal a bit frustrating at times. i was never really bothered by it though and thus never complained. i always find the mentally disable fascinating as their minds have not been broken by culture. the girl's guide was a young girl with a small build. she was not blessed with the best of looks but by no means was ugly. she talked with me a few times and complimented me on my patience. i did not learn much about her, except that she wanted to be a teacher and was planning on going to school at the community college because she did not have enough money to go to iu. she worked 3 jobs since freshman year and hadnt spent a cent. life kept giving her rotten apples as her mother had 3 different boyfriends throughout the year and thus she was moving constantly, yet she always had a sunny disposition. on may 4th of 2009, she was driving home from classes and a drunk driver crossed the mid line killing her on impact. no one even told me. she passed from the world and no hoopla was made. no one mourned beyond belief and now life continues to move on. if i could have a moment with her now, i would tell her to live for a day. to throw all of her worries out the window and have fun. i would tell her that life is too short to slave away. but most importantly i would tell her that someone cares.

i am left with my self at the end of the day and while i put off telling her that someone cared she passed away. there are only so many days on the earth. do not put off today and say it will do tomorrow. there may not be that chance.

always keep moving.

tim.