some time back i wrote about a friend that was subconsciously remaining oblivious to a situation and all i wanted to do is tell him to wake the fuck up and look at what he is doing; to look at the waste he is contributing to in his life. i never said a thing to him. he continues to spend his life in a distorted state. he choses to ignore the warning signs from all around him only to exist without change. it is sad, but it is what he needs right now over everything else. i am glad that i said nothing to him. i would have ruined his life. then he would have hated me.
the part about all of this that is awful is that i know that i subconsciously ignore what is present in my life. i know exactly what it is that i am ignoring, but i can not for the life of me turn and face it. i need someone to confront me. i need to hate them. i need to be better. he wants the same.
i know this is what i need to keep moving.
tim.
As much as I hate hearing it, when I look back I appreciate when people had to shake me and tell me to wake up. I was dating this guy for a while, I don't want to say he was a jerk cause he's a great friend but I wouldn't exactly label him as "boyfriend material"; well anyways one day my friend just straight up told me how dumb I was for not seeing it, she told me how much she hated him. At the time I was pissed but I still took her words to heart even though they hurt. I thanked her for it later.
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