sometimes its just the sound of the tv that gets me always wondering why.
moments of our everyday determine the outcome of our every year and the rest of our lives. when i think back there are so many moments i would change. i would say something differently, maybe the same thing, just in a different tone. there are people i would ask to tag along. there are times that i would act differently. all these things i would change, but some things would remain the same. i would still have the passion that i have. i would still care as much as i do. i would still try in futility just to know that i had.truth is, im tired of thinking about the past. im tired of thinking about the every moment. i just want to be free. i want to escape the everyday and go on to the rest of my life. i have always had this picture of what i want my life to be, but i just dont know how i can get it from here to there. now i sit before a blinking cursor that listens to my every command and i wonder what to do. for the first time in a long time i am at a loss. i am a person with plans. this doesnt happen to me. i have plans for backup plans for plans. i dont sit alone and wonder. it isnt me. i have no idea what i am doing now, so i guess i will rewrite. i will begin again. i will start over from the beginning. this time im not making an end plan, i am simply letting the end find itself in the now. i will not dictate time, i will let it keep moving.
tim.
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