happiness with a stranger.

do whatever you have to do,

to get it out and not become a reaction memory to hurt the ones you love.

to think back on the times in my life that were wonderful i am sad because if i had known that some of those times would be the best times of my life i might have savored them a little more. i may have taken a second mentally and stepped back to se all of my friends in the backseat of the car laughing about the most ridiculous things. i may have taken a moment to understand the gravity of the words that i was speaking as you stared across into my eyes that cold night so high in the sky. and yes i know that sounds like a song lyric, but i truly remember that night as that and the person i shared that moment with would feel the same. i find that the truth behind all of life; the absolute constant behind what makes life great, is happiness in any respect. to be truly happy. aside from that nothing else matters.

i have been fighting my battles and not looking at the bigger picture lately. i was thinking about good times in my life. when thinking about what i want right now and what i wanted 5 years ago i would say that in general my wants are the same. heres the kicker though, the best times of my life had nothing to do with what i wanted, they were most often a brief repose from the everyday. they were simple smiles shared with those i love. sometimes you have just got to step back and see it all. enjoy a laugh. enjoy a smile. share a moment of happiness with a stranger. above all though, make sure that whatever you are doing in life has a root of happiness somewhere in it, because life is happiness. and happiness is what makes us keep moving.

tim.